New crop!!

So Daddy got a new riding crop... It is orange and He said it is used on horses. He used it over my jeans first and it felt stingy, but doable, so He pulled my jeans down to uncover my sexy panties and started snacking me with it...

We were able to play with it for a while. i got out of my head and stopped trying to figure how much it hurt based on the sound, lol, and focused on the feeling in my skin... It felt like a sharp sting and then a warmth... He pushed to a level 9 on a scale of 1-10 twice... The warm up and play was phenomenal... i only wish there was more time in the day for play...

Thank You Daddy!!! i loved Your new crop and can't wait to play again... Hint hint...

Miss Foxy... Teehee! Pt 2. From her perspective

http://trueconfessionsofaliar.tumblr.com/post/136202364307/my-first-ever-punishment

Miss Foxy... Teehee! Pt 1. From my perspective

So, i have a pet... A pretty lil pet fox... We agreed on an owner/pet play dynamic to see how we like it. She calls me Miss Foxy and she is cute as a button.

On Saturday, she was headed to her grandmother's up the mountain and she was to text me when she arrived safe. She said it would take 30-45 minutes to get there, so I gave her an hour and a half... Then I texted her... she replied back that she had gotten there 45 minutes ago and she was sorry for not texting, which means that when I glanced at my phone for the last 45 minutes, waiting anxiously for her to respond, she was safe and I was on high alert for nothing... And she knew she was supposed to text cuz she was sorry for not doing it!!! Trouble...

I gave her a task to do, which was to fill out a BDSM list I found online. I was a little worried because what if I had to give 2 punishments while having no idea what her limits were... But she did it, on time... Good lil fox... Her reward is to get a Papa Bear massage the next time she comes over.

So, little neurotic me starts thinking about what would be a good punishment... The first punishment... I wanted it to be right... Not right... Perfect... I wanted it to be firm, yet caring... I wanted her to know that I truly care about her safety and should not have to worry if she is okay...  I wanted it to hurt... Dammit... If I am going to dominate, I want to have fun and give her what she needs... Even though she doesn't know what that is yet... I want to help her find it... Like Daddy did for me...

So when she was over on Monday, I decided on using the paddle... I decided this after we went through the list and paddling was on her "I will" list. I had a back up option if that had been a no, but that is now in my back pocket for another time... I followed my usual punishment plan, the steps Daddy laid out for me long ago...

Me: Take off your jeans... The first spanken will be over clothes, but you have jeans and leggings, so jeans off...
her: Yes Miss... (Takes off her jeans)
Me: *mumbling* Kneel on the bed and then place your face down on the comforter...(as I walk over to get the paddle)
her: What, Miss Foxy?
Daddy: Kneel right here on the bed...
(she kneels)... Now lay your face on the bed, ass in the air...
her: Yes Daddy...
Me: That's perfect... This is the paddle that I will spank you with... I know you haven't had a paddling before, so we will do this over clothes. If you are naughty again, then I will have to do this again on your bare ass... (oh goodness, i am so nervous... Am i doing this right?)
her: Yes, Miss... (What is she thinking? Is she scared? Does she think this is silly?)
Me: Now, why are you getting this punishment?
her: cuz i didn't text You... (Partly)
Me: No... Why?
her: cuz i made You worry... (Does she think i am crazy for worrying about her? What if she is like- who does this lady think she is?)
Me: That is right, pretty girl. I need to know that you are safe and sound. That is very important to me as your owner. I want to know you are okay. (Omg, i sound neurotic!) Do you understand?
her: Yes Miss
Me: (just breath... Exhale... And swing)
her: ... (She just let out a little breath... It doesn't look like it hurt... Oh goodness, I didn't do it right... Punishments are supposed to hurt, dammit)
Me: It stings, huh?
her: mmhmm...
Me: and it can feel light (gently pat her bottom with it) and you can build up to harder swings that feel good (pull the paddle away. And Daddy starts massaging her ass)
her: mmhmm (she still looks unphased! This isn't perfect... Maybe another one)
Me: but punishments are supposed to hurt (please hit the same spot, please hit the same exact spot!)

Whack!!

her:... (Turns to rest her left cheek on the comforter)
Me: That's it, babygirl. (It looked like it hit the same spot and still nothing... Not a peep...) Did you learn your lesson, do you think?
her: mmhmm (turns to face me again... Face a blank slate... No idea what is going on in that pretty lil head of hers)
Me: Do you understand that I am serious? (Said very seriously)
her: mmhmm
me: okay!! How was it? Did it feel like a punishment? Did it hurt? (Like a kid)
her: it stung a little...
me: (petting her hair and remembering that when i got my first punishment, i was way more worried about if i took my punishment well than worrying about how my Daddy punished me. i was upset for earning a punishment in the first place. It was for leaving the drawer open on the dresser)... You did so good!!
her: (smile) thanks!
Daddy: Hey lil foxes, the pizza is here!
me: oooh, pizza...

Poem #4 from Sire/ my response

The lines between body and soul, blurr when we touch.
Your voice calls me home from a place of chaos.
Your heart has a voice that I hear clearly.
You captured a piece of my heart, as I have captured a piece of yours.

    -Sire Rex-

:)

   -my Reply -

The lines between You and i, intertwine as we chat.
Your words call me home from a place of loss.
Your heart has a voice, loud and clear.
You awakened a piece of my heart, as i have awakened a piece of Yours.

Punishment #3 Part 2- Breaking the Rules... Or... i am a dirty cum whore...

Eyes closed, pussy throbbing, holding onto the bed frame... Silly me, volunteering to go first... But if she had gone first, i would be more scared...

His voice: Do you know why I am doing this? Why I am giving you this punishment?

Me: cuz i am a dirty cum whore, Sire... And i allowed you to cum in my mouth twice and i wasn't supposed to... And i'm sorry... *thinking maybe that extra sorry will save me*

His voice: and...

Me: cuz you love me...

His voice: That's right, babygirl... Because I love you, I must give you this punishment...

WHAP WHAP!!

Me: ahhhh!!

Eyes still closed, shoving my face into my soft comforter... Daddy touches my hand...

Daddy's voice: you okay, baby?

Me: yes Daddy...

His voice: Be a good girl, I don't like having to do this to you, but I will... Always in love...

Me: Yes Sire...

Clean slate...

Family Night - A Night of Firsts...

So, last night was a ton of fun... So much so, that i am writing 2 blogs about it... One is for the amazing debauchery that took place and one for the final punishment that was doled out... This one is about debauchery...

We arrived around 2pm at Sire's house and Sweetheart greeted us at the door. We kissed and talked, exchanged lovely Christmas presents, and settled in with each other, chatting, kissing, and cuddling. Then, Daddy was ready to play, so i set out the electric for Him to use on Sweetheart. Sire and i had been waiting to play for 2 weeks and waiting to fuck for 3, so we decided to get to business right away. We fucked as he whispered sweet things into my mouth as our eyes locked on to one another's... How i wanted to say things back...

After he fucked me, we cuddled together and both got shocked when Sweetheart's knee hit my thigh, lol. Sire's ass was against the bed so it was a pretty good shock, lol. Then, we decided it could be fun to have lil ol me fuck Sweetheart with a strap on! So i put it on and went to town... This was the first time that i was the one fucking with the strap on... Usually, i am the one being fucked, lol... So interesting... And the rhythm my body pummeled her pussy with brought her to climax, yay!!

Then Daddy wanted a turn with me as well, so He fucked me until it was time to get ready for dinner. Right before we left for dinner was the punishment (next blog entry)...

At dinner, Twinsie met up with us with her friend and we enjoyed fun family conversation about what implements were used and whose ass was more beaten... Such fun topics!! Sire and i held hands and so did Daddy and Sweetheart... We were all just basking in the glow of love our family creates.

Of course Twinsie and her guest followed Sire back to his place and we started with Cards Against Humanity... Eventually, i got bored with the game and started giving Sire a hand job under the table... i kept molesting him until he called a 5 minute break. The smokers went out for their cigs and i asked Daddy for permission to go have sex with Sire in the other room, since up until that point, we haven't had sex without Daddy present. Daddy said yes!

So, there we were... The only 2 people in the room, looking into each other's faces and fucking. Sire asked what i got in trouble for last time and i said it was for swallowing his cum and being a dirty cum whore. He said that saliva wasn't against the rules and had me open my dirty mouth wide. Then, he spit/slobbered into my mouth and i drank and swallowed it... It actually helped appease my need to swallow cum! (Totally surprised me)

As he continued to pound my pussy, the rest of our family came in and i was suddenly making out with my Twinsie. Super fucking hot! Then, she is eating me and i am pushing past it with Daddy and Sire's help... Then she is fingering me... She stops, goes and gets lube, and then her whole hand is in and pushing around... The sensation was interesting... One part light pain with two parts pleasure... i came and my pussy locked down... It took a bit for me to become relaxed enough for her to have her hand back... First time i was ever fisted, lol!!

Everything else after that became kind of a blur of fucking and touching and orgy... First time i have ever been in an orgy, lol... i know that i scratched the crap out of Sweetheart, Daddy punched Sweetheart's ass, i licked and fingered my Twinsie, i had a crap ton of orgasms, lol...

Sweetheart also asked that i sit on her face, so i did and i focused and squirted all over her face... My wetness dripping down her cheeks... Later in the night, she asked again, which made me smile... We repeated what we had done before and i helped clean her face off after i came all over her this time... The life of a spoiled princess... That is exactly how i felt. The center of all this fun... A girl could get used to it!!

My poly family...

Had a super rough past couple of days, but with a lot of love and support, i was able to conquer the sorrow like the gladiator i am...

i just have to say that i absolutely love living poly... It is totally for me... Having a poly family makes me feel loved and safe and appreciated and fulfilled. This last Saturday, before the play party, we all went out to dinner... me and my poly family... We went to Red Robin and had an amazing time.

Sweetheart couldn't decide between 2 burgers that i also couldn't decide between, so we each ordered one and split/shared it... Cuz what are sister's for. My Twinsie (formerly Sire's wife) kept Daddy company when He wanted to step out for a smoke, as she smokes too... Which is awesome, because i am not too fond of standing out in the cold while He smokes, but i also don't like Him going out alone... Sire held my hand across the dinner table when everyone else stepped away... The only thing missing was my lil fox, but she had other plans...

After dinner, we met up at the party to get everything set up. Daddy helped Sweetheart and Sire unload the car and set up the cross... Twinsie and i set up the buffet area like a well oiled machine... We all sat on each other, played with each other, and had an overall amazing night together!

My favorite parts (cuz if i wrote this in detail, it would take hours to read) were:

• Kissing Sweetheart - applied the smeared lipstick i had on the rest of the night
• Making out with Twinsie - me sitting on the couch, dressed in underwear and candy red heels that were wrapped around her waist and her in a Sexy Santa outfit and lovely lingerie... i especially love how she crawled over to me... So hot!
• Sitting on Daddy's and Sire's lap at the same time - made me feel like such a little girl and allowed me to enjoy both of the men i care deeply about
• Watching Daddy and Sweetheart as she got her foot sucked on and He held her... Her face while cumming will forever be in my memory as one of the most beautiful sights i have ever beheld
• Resting my head against Sire while in mid conversation and hearing Him lose His place in the conversation a couple of times
• Getting permission from Daddy to make out with Sire 
• Watching Sire thank Daddy out loud for allowing Him the pleasure of my company
• Being ogled, as always
• My big event for the evening - helping my Twinsie cum on command for Sire. Oh my goodness, she was so hot!

Goodness lil fox

Holy shit!!
Last night was beyond amazing... i was so very nervous, but it was for nothing, like usual, lol.

You see, my Daddy tells me about how much He loves this lil fox... How much He adores her and wants to spend time with her and it makes me so happy... At the same time, i get worried that i will be too much... Too much is something i get called a lot, lol... Overwhelming is another version... So i worry that i will ruin it.

So i went into yesterday, nervously waiting for the moment when i ruin it... Then, as her and i made out, i let it go and started to feel like, well, this is me... If it is too much, if it is too overwhelming, if it is too crazy... Oh fucking well... And i let me be me and it was fun to play with her...

It was fun to kiss unbearably soft lips... The kind that you miss kissing while kissing them because you know it has to stop sometime...

It was nice to feel her milky white breasts in my hands and her nipples in my teeth... As i licked them, she asked if i had been licking her shoulder earlier while we were watching TV... i said yes and oh how we giggled together... She thought she was going crazy and i was being tricky with it...

We sent a pic to Daddy, since He was out buying some canes... We talked and shared some similar life moments... i watched her lips as she spoke, enjoyed the quick glances away, as i think my eternal staring was making her a little self-conscious at times...

When the 3 of us were making out, it flowed so smoothly... We rotated, we kissed, we grabbed, we nommed... i showed her my blow job skills on Daddy... i showed her what my hands can do... What my fingers can do when i am aggressively finger fucking a wet and dirty little cunt... Lol... She was so wet and i loved helping her get there...

i could have watched her cum for the rest of my life... In that moment, there was just the joy of the orgasm and the moment lasted forever... Daddy and lil fox took care of me as well... Of course... But i am very used to my orgasms... Lol...

We got into matching fox jammies that Daddy got us and went outside to medicate... Then we snuggled into bed and cuddled up... Later in the night, she had to go home... Due to chest pains, sigh...

i am missing her this morning, but we have already messaged and i am just glad that she is safe and sound...

Nail File

You! You are like a nail file.
Cool and rough to the touch.
Carefully smoothing my rough edges.
Helping me live...

You! You are like a nail file.
Strong and unmoving.
Kindly shaving away my walls.
Helping me love...

you! you are like a nail file.
Sharp and beautiful.
Quickly piercing my lip, my heart.
Helping me feel...

i! i am like a nail file.
Wearing away at myself.
Gently scraping away the hurt.
Helping myself...

Daddy?

i asked Daddy to pee on me in the shower to give it a try... It felt like nothing on my legs, but Daddy didn't like it... So instead, He scrubbed every inch of me... Soaked me and soaped me... Repeatedly sprayed my face with water and asked if i would guzzle cum again... i told Him i wouldn't and begged Him to stop... He did after He felt satisfied with the answering of His questions a few times...

It was fun, aggressive, and playful at the same time... Is this my Daddy? The real deal? The one inside, not the one i have been forcing... Omg, i am all in...

Punishment #3 - Breaking the Rules... Or... i am a dirty cum whore...

So... i told Daddy about being a dirty cum whore...  i mean, our rules clearly state that i cannot have the cum of another man on me... And yet, i accepted Sire's cum, greedily...

Sire didn't know the rules, but i did and i chose not to follow them because i am a dirty cum whore that was swept up in the now of the moment... Mmmmm...

So, Daddy became very upset and i got 2 hard belt spankings. The first one wrapped around and have be a bruise. The second was square on my ass... And they hurt... Oh goodness, did they hurt...

And then came the rub... i had to notify Sire of the issue and accept whatever punishment He deemed appropriate.  He and Daddy have worked it out and i have been assured that it will be swift, but leave a lasting impression.... Fuck!!!

Main Event

This last Saturday was exquisite! First, we were able to get everything lined up with the support group i lead, which went amazingly well. Then, we headed out to see Sire and Sweetheart... Sire was at the store and we were greeted by a naked Sweetheart at the door. So beautiful!

We were able to enjoy some time with her, my Daddy cuddling her while i tickled her legs and feet with my nails. Sire came home and brought her a big stuffed lion. We took him on the car ride to dinner with us and cuddled with each other and him in the back seat as our Daddies chatted in the front. i nibbled on her neck and breasts as we sat in the back seat... She wasn't sure what to do, so i told her to enjoy my nibbles and affection and not to worry about anything else. i wanted to take advantage of her little side for a bit and it felt like she may have wanted her little to be taken advantage of...

Then, we had an amazing dinner with a fun and flirty waitress who knew exactly what she was getting herself into. Sire also flirted with a different waitress, which made her blush, lol... After our yummy dinner, we went back to Sire's house to play.

As we were getting out of Sire's truck, Sweetheart and i named the lion Louie and decided he was from France. As soon as we entered the house, i got naked as i often do...Daddy and Sweetheart went into the bedroom while Sire and i went to another room in the house. This room had a blanket on the floor, a full length mirror, some toys, and a shit ton of rope.

At first, we just enjoyed each other's company, naked and grinding on each other, naked and holding each other, flirting, playing... Then we talked a bit and Sire said words of unequivocal and undying love to me... He had been hinting at this message in texts to each other, so it did not catch me by surprise. Because of that, i was able to accept it without feeling guilty over not saying it back. i love his heart and his kindness. i love his respectfulness and his honor. i love his kindness and his happy nature. i am just not ready to give away more of my heart yet... And he is okay with that difference in this relationship that we are slowly building together.

After the cuddles, we basically humped each other, but without actual intercourse... When he was getting ready to cum, he asked "May I?" and i allowed him to cum in my mouth and then i swallowed it like the dirty little whore i am... *against the rules - More on this later in my next post*... Then, i blew him like my life depended on it. i wanted to make up for the lack of sex this time, so we tried a couple of different positions of oral and i was able to have him cum in my  mouth again *oopsie*

We played with rope and he made me a beautiful red rope corset, had fun with Florentine flogging, played with Goliath, and beat my ass with a light colored maraca looking item... It was fun seeing my butt jiggle in the mirror when he was hitting me with that toy... It was more fun to see his reactions as we played since he forgot for a bit that i could see him in the mirror, lol...

Then, we went to the guest room and snuggled into the bed together. i was looking forward to talking to him in his sleep... Interacting with his dreams... But that didn't end up happening because Daddy decided the sleepover wouldn't work for Him because of work the next morning... So i put everything away and kissed Sire and Sweetheart goodnight a few times.

He whispered his love to me again as i got into our car... It felt good to hear it again, as he was sending me away... It felt more real, if that makes sense...  i am used to men telling me that they love me just to get a good fuck... It has happened before and those men are not in my life anymore... Cuz they meant it conditionally... i have no room in my life for conditional love... My heart is waiting to see how conditional his love is, i guess... Although, based on his definition of love, my heart is being silly... Silly heart...

Quick like a fox...

One last thing that i want to write about Rope Night that also needed to stand alone...

My Ma'am was able to tie me and bunny hop me around for a bit at Rope Night. My progress within our dynamic has been rewarding and She was ready to release me based on this progress. After playing around for a bit, it became serious...

i was released from Her service, quick like a fox with her special rope work... and with tears in my eyes and joy in my heart, i thanked Her. She was there for me when i needed Her and was ready to relinquish control when She felt i was ready. She taught me about being open to trust others. She taught me about respect. She taught me about being proud of myself and my role in this life.

She stated that She was proud of me and honored to help me return to my slave/servant heart when i couldn't find my way. She helped during a time when Papa Bear was struggling with His own grief by providing direction to get me back into my rhythm gently. My Ma'am will always have my respect and devotion and i only hope that i continue to bring pride to Her when i cross Her mind...

Punctured

Nervous in the back seat... Sitting and watching and listening... Wanting to pull her into the back seat with me so i could play while Master drives... Thoughts racing about her... Her eyes... Her lips... Her fangs... Her giggle... Her shyness... All endearing...

i want to walk her to the door and kiss her, but she says no when i ask to walk her to keep me out of the rain... Rain pours outside, streaming down the windows... A clatter and then she gets out, searching under the seat for her phone. i want to help...

Outside the car, cold rain hitting me, and i don't even feel it as i search for her phone. Wanting to serve... Wanting to give... Wanting to kiss... Found it!

Soft and deep hug, when lips grazed my cheek... Not enough... Her face in my hands... Kissing, first soft, then much more urgent... Tongues dancing within...

Ouch! A fang pierced my lip, and suddenly i want more... i want to throw her down and fuck her in the yard in the rain... Looking into her eyes... Wanting...

So cold!! The fucking rain stops it all... Master tells me to get back in the car... To get warm... i listen and lick and nibble the puncture she left me with...

Rope Night is the Shit!!

Oh my goodness! Last night had me floating!

After a short and quick day at work yesterday, i came home to Master and lil fox... It was nice to be greeted by them both... Waiting outside for me to get home...

i gave them both hugs and then went inside to get ready for Rope Night. Showered, legs shaven, face washed... Then i followed my Master's order to tell her to come get ready. Once lil fox walked into our bedroom, i shut and locked the door and laid down on the bed in just a red lacy bra, per Master's order again... He is really enjoying giving me an order and then giving her an order so we don't know what we are going to do to or with each other from the other person's perspective, which i find pretty erotic and adorable. My Master is such a good slave-owner and Daddy...

Anyways, i digress... So then she comes over with these fangs on. i asked what her Daddy told her to do and she looked worried and said she knew of a ticklish spot..
 i asked to determine which one, but the adorable response i received wasn't a location... Just the knowledge that she only knew of one... And then she leaned in and started nibbling my ribs... Now, in the right frame of mind, that shit tickles, but with her leaning down to nibble while i lay on the bed, it just turned me on...

Her eyes searching to see if she was doing it right... Her surprise when i told her i wasn't ticklish right then... Her bigger look of surprise when i flipped her onto the bed and started nibbling on her... Then i asked if i could bite her... Like really bite her... And she gave her permission before i bit hard into her ribs... She didn't even flinch... Just made me want to bite more and harder to find her limit, lol... But not tonight... Tonight is about the fun of rope...

After i got ready in my candy cane thong, we went out to eat at Quiznos. In the car, she rode next to Master and i loved being in the backseat, singing to the music, messing with her and ticking her in her seat in front of me, kissing Master... At Quiznos, i sat her next to Master and myself across from Him... This made her look puzzled so i explained that in my fantasy, i am the third wheel... That seemed to clear up the puzzlement and help her understand the spot that we could see her occupying with us...

Then to Rope Night and it was EPIC!!

Sire and Sweetheart were right outside when we got there and i was able to give hugs all around. My breasts were level with Sire's face in my tall red heels, which lit his face up most of the night! i kissed him a hello and was introduced to his lovely wife again. We found our rug and set up shop. i received amazing rope work from Master. Feeling His Papa Bear cuddle bug energy seeping into everything He was doing, even his rope work was more snug than usual. i love Master's hugs!

After i was tied, Master went out for a smoke with lil fox and i was able to spend time with Sire, his wife, and Sweetheart. This time i was able to spend a little one on one time with Sire's wife as well and we have had some similar experiences in life. We also love the same tea flavors and a good Cabernet Sauvignon. Twinsies!!

Master then untied me so that Sire could tie me. Before i was tied, we enjoyed wandering around the art gallery side on our way to the restroom. i thoroughly enjoyed discussing the workmanship of this one wooden piece with its ornately carved doors with Sire and reviewing the paintings on the walls.

Sire very tightly bound me. He bound my fingers in a coin knot and then bound my arms so i had some mobility. Then he bound my arms to my chest and my legs together, removing that mobility. Then, he pulled me into his lap and held me like a babygirl. He kissed my shoulders and lips while tying me and i could feel his heart and passion pouring into his hands and rope...



Then, the event was over and we said or goodbyes to our new poly family. As we sat there, on the mat, cuddling and tying and spanking and flirting, the love blossomed and overtook my vision of the night. We laughed heartily at jokes. We snuggled together. i saw Master's face light up as lil fox and Sweetheart and Sire's wife all received the Papa Bear cuddle... Should be a fetish... Papa Bear Cuddles - all about it... But these people and this time... It was the first time since September where sadness over losing my son didn't enter the picture... It was the first time when i looked around at all of this happy love and felt at peace...

Sire received a preview kiss that hopefully excited him for the main event tonight... i kissed and hugged Sweetheart and reminded her that i was also excited to play with her as well. She is beautiful and adorable and i am excited!! Then, Sire's wife kissed the top of each breast since they were level with her face as well, lol, and we hugged and discussed planning a hang out in January.

Then we took lil fox home and the next post will include that moment because it was so special that it must stand alone...

Poem #3 from Sire

"Blushing Cara Mia"

Oh the joy of making her blush.

Eyes absorb images
Ears absorb sounds
Flesh absorbs contact

Soon she will see my face again...
and she will blush.
Soon she will hear my voice again...
and she will blush.
Soon she will feel my hands again...
and she will blush.

Oh the joy of making her blush.

Her cheeks flush with blood gives me pleasure, because of the cause, not the effect.

It's her heart...

Suddenly, because of me, it's beating faster.

Blood flows quicker, veins dilate.

She's blushing...

In that instant I see the confirmation....I've stirred her heart once more.

Her heart that's awakening for me...

From my heart....Sire

New friend - lil fox

How interesting! Tonight, i really wanted to go to the coffee, but couldn't because we were lacking a sitter. So i thought tonight was going to be a quiet day in...

As i was chatting with this new little fox we met (that is correct, she identifies as a fox!), it turned out that she wasn't doing anything tonight, so Daddy drove and picked her up. She came over and colored with me. We got to know each other a little better. We both snuggled with Daddy together.

We also reviewed our play bag and i could tell that she may have been interested in trying it, but she was also afraid of getting hurt... We assured her that she could watch me and watch our interactions first, so she can see how He is with me. She seemed to like that idea, so next time...

She looked deliciously nomable though in her busty shirt and her shorts... And her orange-ish fox hair on her pale skin... Beautiful... Lil fox...

A heart awakened

Your very own poem, Sire...

"A heart awakened"

The pain that put my heart to rest,
gone but a few months,
and slowly, surely, you have awakened me.

Awakened the great within,
the love that flows,
the life that gives.

With words dripping of honey and sweetness,
kindness and strength,
understanding and, dare I say, love.

A heart, awakened,
glimpsing the hope of a new joy,
a new experience,
a new peace.

Awakened... by you...

From the heart of foxy

Poem #2 from Sire

Preview Kisses, before the  "Main Event"

9 days have passed since I've tasted her lips

9 days too long her mouth absent of mine

5 days still till the "Main Event"

5 days still till my sweet is mine

But 4 days from now we'll wet our appetites.

4 days from now I'll give her preview kisses.

I'll kiss her body with my rope

I'll kiss her body with my hands

I'll kiss her deeply with my mouth.

Preview kisses before the main event

Preview kisses to wet our appetite

Preview kisses in my arms I'll hold her tight

Preview kisses to wet her heart

Preview kisses to wet her....

From the heart of Sire...

Punishment #2

2 hard whaps with the cane... and i went down like a sack of potatoes... A very sexy sack of potatoes, lol, but still...

i almost had a perfect slave day, but i kept forgetting my place when laying down together. This is important to my Daddy, so i need to be more conscientious of where i place myself when we are together.

We have also instituted a new practice where i am not allowed on the furniture at home unless He requests me to use it... i feel like i will probably be writing about punishments a lot pretty soon as i am finally in a headspace that is ready to be trained again... It only took us about 5 years to get the hang of it last time, lol... So this time should go much better, i think...

Talking Dirty

So, last night, Daddy and i played so much and i had so much fun! Daddy says that being a good girl and following orders and getting stuff done makes Him very happy and makes Him want to play with me.

Last night was seamless! Dinner went smoothly and Daddy enjoyed a 3 course meal (salad, spaghetti/meatball, pumpkin spice cheesecake with coke/whiskey) served promptly... i am so proud of how it went and the level of service i provided for my Daddy was perfect! Then, we caught up on shows together and watched a movie.

At bedtime, we sang Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer as a family and put the kids to bed. Then we medicated and went to bed. We had amazing anal sex... As He pinned me to the bed, slamming into me, i talked so dirty to Him. Some of the things i said included:

Yeah, fuck Your dirty whore's ass...
Did You like seeing your dirty whore in her pretty lace panties?
Yah, Your whore looked classy, didn't she?
Fuck Your dirty, classy, little whore's ass!

There were so many others, but these stick out in my head, lol. Afterward, Daddy looked really tired, but i just had so much energy... So Daddy turned on some music and had me dance for Him. i let my body move with the music and before long, He wanted to play...

So, i was able to play!!!! Yes!!!

Daddy cupcaked my breasts in some leg cuffs, damn 34DDD, and started beating the undersides with our 5 cane. It was amazing! i took so much! He was so proud! He also got my quads, still sore from leg day, and my ass, also sore from leg day, lol... Damn squats and morning glories and dead lifts... But it hurt so good... Like a deep tissue sports massage...

Afterward, He thanked me for the dirty talk... It was so hot!!