Broken

I found out today that when I gave my will truly over to Papa Bear this time, it was harder than i expected. I knew what I would possibly be losing. I asked him to be selfish and now he is. This means that I will change. I will adjust who I am to fit his needs. I will need to be careful in love, especially.

I will lose parts of myself and have already lost pieces of my heart. I have always wanted to be Papa Bear's slave, which means that I will blindly follow his direction. I provide him with my opinion and my thoughts and perspectives and he takes them in or rejects them and then I follow what he says.

This is the life I asked for. Now I need to live it. Even if it breaks my heart...